Assalamualaikum and hola everyone! After nearly a year ye baru update balik hahaha the fact hampir lupa account mana yang guna untuk log in menunjukkan this site amatlah berhabuk. I am really sorry for that. Being a final year student is hard, but being a fresh graduate is harder ;,) *screaming inside
Actually, settle je exam and final year project July haritu, I amek masa 2 weeks untuk bersenang-lenang layan kdrama etc sebelum mulakan planning yang I dah list down after I graduate. Yeah, walaupun masa tu belum officially graduate pun but based on nasihat-nasihat daripada otai-otai di sekelilingku yang menasihati diri ini untuk cepat-cepat cari kerja walaupun belum graduate secara rasmi, so yeah, I started my job search immediately after 2 weeks bersenang-lenang tu.
And please do remember that I bukanlah terus jump cari kerja membuta tuli. Of course, I spent some times join webinar and career fair untuk tahu job opportunity as well as apa yang employer nak from us, macam mana nak buat professional resume and CV, as well as cover letter, how to impress your interviewer, and all that, yes. I join banyak webinar and career fair (Fly High, i-Career), sebagai persediaan untuk terjun dalam industri ini.
However, here is the reason why I bukak balik this blog. It's already a month (I think) since I got my official result for my undergraduate studies (nanti sijil I sampai I update yang ni). It's already a month I buat a bank resume, submitting various kinds of resume according to the position yang I nak apply, attending for interviews, sleepless nights doing preparation, participating for a lot of workshops sebab nak enhance and upgrade skills, but there is no positive result (yet).
I am not receiving any feedbacks for my application. I am not getting any call for my second interview. There's no email telling 'congratulations, you're hired' going into my mailbox. I mula rasa penat, give up, hopeless. And that's the reason I'm writing this. Faham kan perasaan, bila kita dah all out, dah give everything all the efforts we can do, tapi belum ada apa-apa hasil. (even writing this pun dah buat I penat sebab kena remember all that kind of feeling).
Of course la, I ada impian, nak tolong family nak tolong parent, after years spent for studies and to be recognized as a Degree holder. Tapi, mungkin, usaha I belum sampai ke tahap maksimum. (I bersangka baik). Mungkin ada beberapa perkara lagi yang I terlepas pandang. Ibadah I, hubungan I dengan Allah, kan? I do believe, the right time will come. (Pray for me!) But first, let me confess everything here, with that I could feel better. (and it is really helpful if you guys can leave some comments here!)
So, to all my friends yang masih study, yang masih berjuang, enjoy the moment. I start to believe bila orang cakap "zaman study adalah zaman yang paling seronok sekali", and yes, I could feel that. I miss those moments. Lagi-lagi zaman BC (Before Covid), where we can have physical interactions, no social distancing, rushing to lecture halls, participate various kind of volunteering program, jumpa dengan raaamai orang. Semoga dunia cepat sembuh, dan semoga Allah angkat wabak ni supaya kita dapat hidup macam biasa. We can't live in the new norm, we don't need this new norm. Covid, go away!
Till then! Take care and stay safe!
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| My first virtual interview session! |
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| Ihsan Google >v< |
